It’s been a while since I posted on here… but I’m really struggling again. I’m fighting my eating disorder and I don’t know where else to turn. I’m light headed typing this… been in and out of recovery and eating disorder modes for years. Been eating less than 800 calories a day every other day… the other day I eat little to nothing (definitely under 500 calories).
I know I shouldn’t want to be so thin… I struggle because I see the beauty of my big butt and thick thighs… but I miss my ribs and hip bones showing… I miss being thin and tiny… I’m losing weight pretty quickly but I’m hungry and my mind is trying to recover while the rest of me tries to lose weight and sink back into my eating disorder.
So many people around me know about it and a couple people comment but nothing really… I don’t know what to do…
Do I keep trying to lose the weight or do I go and be healthy and heavy again…
I’m so light headed… I have no where else to turn…
